Lessons - Day 22

I've been trying to figure out why God put me on this journey at this point in my life. I've mentioned in previous posts how peace has not really been one of the guiding themes of my life recently. I have struggled this whole project to see why it is God brought me here.

This afternoon I was chatting with my mom. Whining, really. I was just feeling a little down. Mom apologized, said she felt like being home had caused me a lot of tension and distress. I was surprised. I hadn't felt that way at all! She said she hadn't been feeling much peace these last weeks, and we started talking through some of those reasons. I reflected a bit and was surprised to see how unsettled I should be feeling. There is a lot of uncertainty in my life at this moment, lots of things that in years past would have sent me into an emotional downward spiral. But I'm actually ok. Not over the moon, not bouncing off the walls - I'm ok. I'm calm.

I think God put me on this path because he knew what these weeks would hold. Lots of stress and uncertainty, lots of tension and busyness, all the things that make me unbalanced. He knew that I needed to search for lessons about peace every day, because my daily life would not hold a whole lot of peace easily found.

God knew I needed peace in these days, and that I wouldn't look for it without this project. So thank you Josh, for the invitation, and thank you to the other contributors, for being sources of peace and blessings in my life even though I haven't met most of you.

Today's lesson: God knows what I need, especially when I don't.

25 Days for Peace is a cooperative blogging experiment between myself and five other artists, designed to explore the facets of peace, particularly centered around this season intended to experience the peace of Christ. Visit this page to see the other contributions to this journey, and like it to join with us in exploring what peace means.