Far Too Fleeting

It's been too long my blog friends... Too long. I had a few rather unpleasant experiences that made me not want to blog anymore, that also made me not want to do a lot of things, but what would life be if I gave up on fun learning experiences just because I got vaguely annoyed? Dumb! That's what it would be! And here is the actual post:

With the school year ending, summer beginning, and so many dear friends graduating and leaving for college, it seems natural that I've been reflecting on how fleeting high school really is. Maybe it's just because I'm in high school, but it seems as though so many movies, songs, magazines, and books are focused on these four years. I know I spent a large part of late elementary and junior high just waiting to be in high school. Then as soon as I got here, it's like it went by in a second. I clearly remember jumping into my best friend's pool with my best friends yelling "High school here we come!" (which we stole from a movie, yes. We were 14, what do you expect?) the summer before freshman year. I'm about to be a senior. How did this happen?

 I had a very clear picture then, of how highschool would be for me. I planned on, and was excited to be, a geeky theater kid with dorky friends. I was going to be invisible. I wasn't going to date. I'd have a few friends, but not many. Shockingly enough, that's not the case. Things changed. I changed. God changed me. I'm thankful for it. I have tons of friends, from different backgrounds, schools, belief systems, and ages. I have a boyfriend. I'd rather go to a concert with a mob of friends than have a slumber party and watch musicals (which was what I expected I'd be doing.) How crazy is it that God can so drastically change my life and my personality from what I thought I would be to what I am now.

Which brought me to thinking about how much different will things be in another three years. When I'm a sophomore in college? Will I be studying music like I plan on doing? Will I still like bad scifi movies and techno music? Will my brother and I still be the best of friends? Who will my friends be? What's going to happen to all these relationships I've spent years building when I go off to college? I have one summer, one school year left. How will I spend it?

And here's my point. What will I do with this? My last summer, my senior year. What's it going to be worth, in the end? I could spend it partying with friends, having the time of my life. I could blow off my last year and skate through all my classes. I could. But when I look back on it, this last leg of childhood (because that's what it is, really), what do I want to see? A year of parties that I'll barely remember? Or a year of ministry? There's a lot I could do in a summer. In a year. People I can influence, people who can influence me, lessons to learn, lessons to teach, friends and family to love with all my heart.

So I guess the question is... What are you going to do with high school? What's the time worth to you?