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Saturday, May 10, 2014

An Open Letter

I’ve been reflecting. Isn’t that always the case when it comes to these posts?

It becomes more and more true the older I get, I think. This blog becomes less about sharing with you all and more about documenting my own journey, and hoping that maybe my journey can help you travel yours better.

Almost exactly a year ago I posted about fairy tale friendships. It’s one of my very favorite posts I’ve ever made. Friendships are such a vital part of my life, and I love to relive the journey I’ve been on with those people. But this afternoon while I read through it with a smile on my face, sitting here in my window sill soaking in the sunlight, I realized so many of the people who have altered me as a person in the last year were not included in that list.

How odd is it that people who have changed me, who I consider friends for life, who have walked through this year of growth with me, I barely knew a year ago?

I love writing notes to people, and the end of the semester is an optimal time for it. A time to reflect on the growth and memories of the last year. As I started writing I realized that every note I wrote began with some version of “a year ago, who would have thought we’d be here?”

So here is my open letter to those people.

Ben, I had just gotten to know. Everyone knows Ben, everyone loves Ben, and I easily assumed he had enough friends and wouldn’t have space in his life for someone he had very little connection to. Glad I was wrong, because he has proven to be an invaluable friend to me, offering wisdom and comfort innumerable times.

Kody and I had drifted apart and come back together. I couldn’t figure out why were friends. Maybe sometimes I still don’t, because by all accounts we should drive each other absolutely crazy. But Kody, you have inspired me every day to be as passionate, as energetic, and as loyal as you are. I don't know what I'd do without his craziness in my life.

Jacob was just the weird guy who creeped me out the first day of classes. Now he’s still weird, but a solid friend. Someone I can always rely on for an understanding ear and a wise opinion. 

Nicco was just the friend of friends, someone who kind of ran in the same circles, someone who absolutely terrified me but I still really wanted to know. A year later he is a person I greatly respect, someone who walked me through one of the scariest things I’ve faced thus far, and has pushed me to be better in so many ways.

Aaron I hadn’t even met! He was still a high school student waiting to see what kind of adventures college would bring. I had no idea he would come to be a voice of reason in my life as well as the source of so much joy.

I mentioned in that post a year ago that I had connected with the staff of campus ministries and how they had already become a part of my life. I had absolutely no comprehension of how drastically they would change my life!

Brittany, just the girl down the hall who smiled at everyone, has been the best partner I could ask for. Her steadfast joy and optimism astound me more and more every day.

Elisha, the veteran CMC I was so intimidated by, has been a constant source of wisdom and stability in this crazy year. Her insights have guided me and so many others, and I cannot wait to see what God does through her next!

Eric. Oh Eric, you unexpected friend! From the very first moment he defied every expectation I had of him. He is truly a warrior for Christ, an incredible leader, an understanding friend, and one of the greatest people I have every had the privilege to know.

Niles, who even from the moment I met him I knew we would be fast friends, has turned out to be such an indispensable rock in my life. His goofiness and sarcasm have a way of making my worst days easier, and I always know that when I need to hear what God needs to tell me, it is very likely Niles will know what to say.

Anne, who seemed so aloof when I met her, has been the person who understands me best. Within in days of reuniting for training, the people around us thought we’d been friends for years. Her friendship is so special to me, probably because we’re basically the same person. Her love for people and love for God blows me away every single day. I cannot wait to lead with her next year.

So there’s my open letter, to the people who have changed me more in a year than I ever thought possible. People who have had an impact on me in 12 months equal or greater to people I’ve known for  years. To all of you, thank you. Thank you for being the incredible people God has created you to be. And to the rest of you, I hope this makes you think about yourself last year. Think about the people who have changed you. And thank them.

Grace and Peace.